Survivor

They say that I am strong because I'm still alive

But that's only because I tried to lay down and die but my body keeps making me live

It makes me eat even when I don't want to

It makes me fight it stay alive no matter how ill I get

I keep going and trying even when I have real disabilities that make it hard to live in this Society and even harder to find work and feel productive

Not being ashamed or trying to hide is brave or to some a lie

But it is just a fact

If I don't care what other people think I look like that's brave or tirable

People say that people that survived natural disasters or live through Wars are lucky and strong

They are so brave

But I think that if they are anything like me

They just kept going

My body makes me

I have wanted to die so many times

And even made plans to kill myself

But I'll probably live to be over a 100

I don't have a choice

I have to just keep going

I don't think survivors are stronger than anyone else

I think like me they just keep going because they don't have a choice

Like mine their bodies won't let them give up and die

Having a reason to live is wonderful

Having friends and work that you love really does make people's lives better

But surviving and staying alive is often just hard slogging work

Surviving just means that you keep going

You don't have to be strong, special, or smart

Just rest and find joy when you can and keep going